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27th December gonna come.I don't know what can I do if I can't sms him again.3months are totally long time.I know you guys don't understand me because I never tell anybody about my feelings. :( except BLOGGING. so,you guys can know what is my feelings.

I don't even know how to express my sadness and my happiness.Sometimes eventhough you see my face is smiling but I feel very sad. I don't know why I need to type all of these in my blog.Maybe I really feel myself lost in sadness.

If I cry,then everything will be OK,but.....I still can't forget the things that I still remember in my brain.I really want to cry!!!! but I can't....and I need to be happy..... :) can someone help me with this ??? I cry on Christmas week ?! NOWAY.

When I looked at my teddy a.k.a Andrian....and I really felt I really need help.....but I still can't find one because I need to find a person that really understand me.Maybe I will tell everything to Rosetta my friend.and she will see my tears.....

I've always tell myself that: "learn to express your feeling,Eva...." but I still can't do it.I cry every night......and I've always think about the things that i've worried since Monday..... Oh ya,maybe you guys know I have a BF rite?? but...... I don't know how to tell him my problem in anyway.

Maybe you guys think that: "Eva Natasha is a Happy-Go-Lucky- girl....and she's always happy.." but I guess I'm not a girl like that.... although I love to laugh.....but you guys don't know how sad am I....except the main situation is all about happy things lah kan....

I type all of this because ............ I'm LOST IN SADNESS.

EVA NATASHA IS LOST.
SHE'S WANTED.
PLEASE FIND HER NOW.
.FINISH.
please call 016-0000000
if you've found her.
thanx.